I Love Running But I Lack Motivation

Hi. Plaridel is my pseudo name, and I love running. I've been running for the past four months, and I really enjoyed it. Not only because I lost weight (I lost 10 pounds in the process while eating A LOT); the thing is, I felt better... Far, far better than before.

Then, I got burned out: I could hardly drag myself to run, and I saw myself making excuses so as to avoid running altogether.

That went on for a month. Thereafter, I saw my weight creep yet again (I've gained 8 pounds to date), I've had unexplainable headaches, feelings of malaise; and worst, I got depressed.

You see I'm the type of person who can fall rather easily to depression: I'm a perfectionist, to a level that I think is greater than no other.

But surprisingly, during those four months that I never missed a single workout on this plan I've downloaded from the net (later I shall show it here), I've been a person very unlike my old self. I studied hard, but I made sure I enjoyed doing it. I barely had bouts of bad mood. I always felt great. Just great.

I miss those days, but, I just lack the motivation to go on. I run alone, for I could not motivate my close friends to run. As much as I want to join sports clinics, I couldn't because of my late classes. No matter how hard I push myself, I just didn't have that same motivation as I had before.

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Today's the last day of our classes for this semester, and just yesterday, I really pushed myself to run on our treadmill. I just felt so bad, so stressed out, that my body actually pushed me out of my comfort zone. I surprised myself by running for an hour, and I couldn't explain the feeling I got from it: it was complete bliss like no other, incomparable with eating my favorite foods, incomparable with reading my favorite books.

I felt so glad I was able to do it yesterday, but the lasting feeling isn't there yet. Like today, I didn't feel like running again. But that I believe I can apologize. After being unable to run for a month, I think it's but proper that I do it gradually. I have to go and run, to remind myself that I'm yet again introducing the "Best Medicine in the World" in my system.

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I want to apologize for the "emo-ness" of this entry, but, I think this is one of the many effective ways to motivate myself to run again.

In this blog I shall record:

• My day-to-day workouts (time, duration, kind)
  
• My feeling before and after the workout
• The completion to this one-liner: "Had I not run today, I wouldn't have..."
  

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So this is it. No turning back. I shall do this this time! :)